Recentemente, organizei recortes de jornal e andei querendo parar o tempo (fico assustado de ver que este "recentemente" tem quase um mês). Depois disso, quis com todas as minha forças voltar atrás e fazer tudo diferente - ou, pelo menos, ver certos trechos do filme de novo. No fim, é tudo covardia, medo de uma luta que não queremos lutar. Tempo passa demolindo tudo e as mudanças não param nunca. Cada coisa é uma coisa e a vida não é um eterno deja-vu - embora às vezes pareça que ela está sempre disposta a nos tratar muito mal.
O que realmente querem de nós não é o desejo de parar ou voltar, mas que sejamos capazes de começar tudo de novo, ainda que cansados e com todos os ossinhos do corpo moídos.
E começou 2011. Esperança e ânimo renovados? Espero que sim. Estamos sempre caindo e levantando, implodindo as pedras que nos são atiradas, como bem disse o pai do blog. E é isso que carregamos de ano para ano. Não estou suficientemente inspirado para uma boa mensagem de início de ano. Deixa o Labrie falar:
E vai com letra e tudo:
To Rise, To Fall. To Hurt, To Hate. To Want, To Wait. To Heal, To Save.
Can't hear it we fear it awareness won't come near it
Distractive Reactive Disguised in spite of time
I never bared my emotion My passion always strong I never lost my devotion but somewhere fate went wrong
Can't let them rape me again Your venom's not family here won't let them fill me with fatalistic remedies
What if the rest of the world was hopelessly blinded by fear? Where would my sanctity live? Suddenly nobody cares.
It's never enough You're wasting your time Isn't there something I could say? You don't understand You're closing me out How can we live our lives this way?
You tell me I'm wrong I'm risking my life Still, I have nothing in return I show you my hands You don't see the scars Maybe you'll leave me here to burn.
What if the rest of the world was hopelessly drowning in vain? Where would our self pity run? Suddenly everyone cares.
Blood...Heal me Fear...Change me Belief will always save me Blood...Swearing Fear...Staring Conviction made aware
Give up on misery Turn your back on dissent Leave their distrust behind Wash your hands of regret
Do you feel you don't know me anymore? And do you feel I'm afraid of your love? And how come you don't want me asking? And how come my heart's not invited? You say you want everyone happy Well, we're not laughing.
And how come you don't understand me? And how come I don't understand you? Thirty years say we're in this together So open your eyes.
People in prayer for me everyone there for me Sometimes I feel I should face this alone My soul exposed It calms me to know that I won't
Blood...Heal me Fear...Change me Belief will always save me Blood...Swearing Fear...Staring Conviction made aware
Give up on misery Turn your back on dissent Leave their distrust behind Wash your hands of regret
Blood...Heal me Fear...Change me Belief will always save me Blood...Swearing Fear...Staring Conviction made aware
Learning from misery Staring back at dissent Leaving distrust behind I'm inspired and content
